I’ve never missed my grandma more than I do right now. I have so many questions for her. I realized the other day that she was quite possibly my last living link to finding out about my heritage, as she was the last one I had a relationship with who grew up in Willow Bunch […]
Righteous
Today, for the first time in my life, I became aware with glaring clarity of just how complacent and small I have allowed myself to become. It was a wake-up call. And wow, was it an uncomfortable one. For ethical reasons, I can’t share details of what exactly happened (though someday I may be able […]
Heart of the Ocean
If there is anything I have ever known without a shadow of a doubt in my entire life, it is that I belong to the ocean.
Feel Your Feels, Y’all
I have been off work now pretty much since November 30th. I had surgery (total hysterectomy) which despite being a much anticipated step in my journey proceeded to jolt my mind, body, and soul into a very sudden biological crisis that I was not at all prepared for. I will talk about this in more […]
Hold on, kids; it’s history lesson time!
For years I have been somewhat half-heartedly attempting to compile all the necessary documentation required to apply for my Metis Card, which formally accepts me as a member of the Metis Nation of Saskatchewan. Not gonna lie, it’s a lot of paperwork. There are requests for long form birth certificates, inter-provincial documentation, adoption forms, name […]
Nobody said it would be easy…
“The most fundamental aggression to ourselves, the most fundamental harm we can do to ourselves, is to remain ignorant by not having the courage and the respect to look at ourselves honestly and gently.” Pema Chodron, When Things Fall Apart: Heartfelt Advice for Hard Times I’d like to preface this post by calling some bullshit. […]
He loved me
Picture it: Catholic Youth Group, 1997. I, a young innocent teenage girl. He, a few years older. I was interested in this young man. He had rosy cheeks, and the most infectious laugh I had ever heard. He wore interesting clothes, often a t-shirt with a long sleeved shirt over top of it, with a […]
Being “white-ish”
It feels like the world is burning right now. The news has been heartbreaking and my empathic self is feeling all kinds of chaotic and disturbing energy in the air. I am always so heartened when shit goes down and my social media is flooded with people who are fighting the good fight; I have […]
Are We There Yet??
Waiting Art Form? Punishment? Or Badass Ninja Warrior Mindfulness Practice? I consider myself to be a very patient person. I think it’s probably one of my most redeeming qualities. But lately, and maybe this is just pandemic isolation speaking, I have been getting really bloody tired of waiting. I have always consciously taken the opportunity […]
Let’s get this party started.
“Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.”― Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You […]